For most of my life, I was a sneaker. I’d always duck my head into the pantry or the refrigerator to stuff something in my mouth when nobody was looking.
Sometimes I’d even walk away, go sit down + immediately get back up to sneak more.
At the height of my eating disorder I’d sneak a chocolate croissant or madeline cookie from the coffee shop I was working at, head straight to the bathroom eat it + then throw it up.
I wasn’t hiding because I was stealing someone else’s food.
I wasn’t hiding because the people would judge me if they saw me eat.
I wasn’t hiding because of food at all.
I was hiding out of shame. I couldn’t allow myself to enjoy the food I was eating or the body I was living in.
Granted not all of us walk down such a severe road as developing an eating disorder but I believe everyone’s shame expresses itself somehow. Most women I talk to express it physically.
We diet, we restrict, we force, we work, we hide, we look pretty, we put on masks. We want it all to look like it’s perfect.
Many of us are willing to go to extremes and ignore our own needs for the sake of holding it all together. We’re on a roller coaster hamster wheel that we can’t get off.
There’s nothing more beautiful than meeting a woman who has walked through her life + isn’t ashamed to own her shameful moments just as much as her triumphant ones.
This is our beauty, this is your beauty.
Instead of hiding or frantically trying to make some undesirable part of you go away, you can welcome it into your life because it’s there to teach you + help you grow.
My eating disorder was not desirable + hiding that part of me was excruciating. Once I accepted it as part of my lesson, I can’t help but see how it led me here to this moment, writing to you about shame.
I love the idea that each one of us is already whole. It takes a lot of pressure off of doing, being + acquiring MORE. We’re whole. We’ve just forgotten and have to remember!
This is why I created the Beautiful You Project. It comes from my wholeness, not my perfect, know-it-all-ness. I’m on this path too + we are all here together for a reason.
Maybe you find yourself feeling confused or totally nuts around food…
Maybe you are so busy you can’t imagine what “downtime” looks like but you KNOW you need it…
Maybe you want to learn how to build more grounding + balance in your life.
Maybe you want to start 2016 right without having to add another thing to your to-do list…
If you are looking to slow down, to stop juggling 100 balls in the air, to learn about your body, about the power of food and about how to love yourself even when life gets messy….
you will love the Beautiful You Project
While you’re shopping, do something sweet for yourself + join us. This also makes a GREAT gift for one of your girlfriends! Life is always better when you do things together!
This 21 day journey only costs $75 if you sign up before Christmas.
That’s just over $3.50 a day – less than the cost of a Starbucks coffee or a green juice + it will do more for your energy, health + vitality than either of those.
Is feeling beautiful in your body + confident in your life worth $3.50 per day to you?
Seriously…stop waiting and start living!
What past participants have said:
I’m eating better. Made a pot of homemade chicken with rice soup today! I was so proud of myself. I barelyused a recipe. I’ve cooked so much this week. I signed up for Farm Fresh to You so I can get local, organic veggies delivered to my door. It’s a good investment in my family’s health and my husband was totally on board with it. So the biggest change, was the amount of cooking I did and I did eat out less…believe it or not. Also drinking warm lemon water every morning and stopping to breathe A LOT more.
I liked the focus of the daily challenges. It helps to slow life down and dial it in, I've been able to take back some me time that my life was missing.~ Megan
The early bird price is only good until Christmas so be sure to sign up to get the discount!
Here’s to you feeling beautiful!